This is my life now...

• water and vitamins and apple cider vinegar 
• eating breakfast when I just don't like eating breakfast  
• walking and exercising 
• more water 
• trying hard to make healthy choices. 
• Ignoring the oreo pie in the fridge and passing up the diet mountain dew and going for the water at the gas station... 
• passing on the white bread when I just love white bread...
• constantly wondering if I'm doing this right... 
• waiting. 
• WAITING on results that just can't come fast enough. 
• Looking at the scale and forcing myself not to step on it every single day. 
• Spending more money than usual on food because healthy food is so much more expensive but being healthy is worth every single penny. 
• Sweating. 
• Out of breath
• lungs feeling like they are going to burst
• the tremendous amounts of energy I feel after a workout. 
• Adding to the box of give away clothes because everything is getting too big. 
• My rings twisting around my finger because they probably need to be sized down! :) 
• Seeing definition in my face and neck in the mirror 
• stepping out of the shower and actually noticing my gut going down!!! 

then I wake up and do it all over again. Its monotonous and boring sometimes but I have to keep on. I am almost at a point where I'm used to this. This is my life now.  that's not going to change and I'm okay with that... I am just being impatient. The results are coming. Slower than I want but they are showing up. I'm proud of that but I'm also very aware that I have to do this the right way or I could just gain it all back or even hurt myself in the process. My goal isn't to be "skinny" its to be HEALTHY. I have to keep reminding myself that. <3