Its Noon in the middle of August in Southeast Georgia and the temperature at my house is reading
72 degrees!!!!!!
(yesterday, it said 92 at this same time)
I decided I'd start the couch to 5K today... or at least try. See, I have a long driveway between lush trees off of a main highway... I decided to just start out there... usually, I go to the park but I just got back from a job interview (details on that later) and I didn't really want to drive anywhere else SOOO I put on my runnin' shoes and started the app on my phone. I had to do a brisk walk for 5 minutes to warm up and then I jogged for a minute and walked for a minute and a half for a total of 30 minutes... the first few times, easy... but then I started over thinking it. I would start to jog and imagine myself falling and actually get scared and almost freak out!!! Not to mention my boobs feeling like they were going to hit me in the face! I decided to jog on the grass beside the driveway and I was terrified of tripping over pine cones... Is this normal? I mean, I'm a big girl and if my ass falls down, its gonna HURT. I KNOW the laws of gravity. I know that heavy things make a harder fall... I KNOW I don't want to twist an ankle or hurt myself... ack! I'm totally psyching myself out here.... I'm SO weird! It got so bad that I just walked most of the time and probably only jogged a total of like 8 minutes (with walking in between). Not exactly how I wanted to start off but I did it... I am worried when I run that I'm not doing it right??? Haha, this makes me laugh saying this but do I run on my toes, do i use the heel to toe technique? Do I breathe out my mouth, my nose, take deep breaths, shallow breaths... See what I mean??? Why am I over thinking this??? Should I just stick with walking until I lose a little more weight??? LORD HAVE MERCY!
I seriously have given myself a headache thinking about this. This is one reason why I won't go to the gym right now. I want to lift weights and work out my legs and tris and bis and gluts and all that mess but I sure as hell don't want to be doing it wrong. I've tried to google shit but I'm still not sure I'm doing it right...
So, I guess I'll try again with the running tomorrow... maybe... I don't know. This has been a slightly tough day. I also felt a little negativity about my eating recently. I have been working on my weight loss and healthy lifestyle for about 3 weeks now. I have lost a total of 16lbs since I weighed last (I refuse to weigh again until next week) which I know isn't normal and it will slow down and blah blah blah... I'm eating healthy stuff and drinking a ton of water. I exercise 30 min or more a day. I'M NOT HUNGRY. I eat 3 good meals per day of good clean food and I eat healthy snacks. If I'm hungry, I eat... but the last two days, I added up my calories and I'm eating about 1100 calories a day. Well my gosh, a whole head of lettuce is like 5 calories and tomatos and cucumbers are little of nothing and the bread I eat is whole grain and clean but like I said, I'm NOT hungry... I don't think I COULD eat more if I wanted to... How is this bad??? I mean, yes, I know the more I work out and the more I burn the more calories I should take in but where am I going to fit that in???
Like I said, today has been a little frustrating. sigh...
Many people have asked me why I'm looking for a job. It has nothing to do with photography. I stay so busy with my photography that I don't have time to even mess with my fan page (I do most of my blogging and facebooking from my phone) and I stay booked up. I'm 100% happy about where I am with that right now. I have some amazing clients. :) My reasons are personal. I don't care to disclose that here but my close friends and family are aware. The type of job I'm applying for will not interfere in my photography...in fact, it will only help it! :)
Anyway, that's all I have to say about that. I guess its back to google for figuring out these concerns I have with my food and my miserable attempts at running, lol.
Have A Healthy Day!
<3 Wendy
Don't run heal to toe! Run on your toes! I hate running HATE running but have gotten into it a bit more - can now run a 5k. A friend told me to run like a boxer kind of hops in place, as light footed as you can, SLOW, running on your toes is good! If you feel your heart rate getting too high, slow it down, for fat burn, you actually only want your heart rate slightly higher than normal - just for a longer period of time - upwards of 30 min. That's why the run/walk thing is actually great! Keep it up lady!
ReplyDeleteIve always been taught breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth......also if you really concentrate on your breathing, it actually does make most any exercise easier bc your mind is on that and not how much its sucking.
ReplyDeleteYou're doing great! I freak about running too. I want to be a runner, but I have a bad knee, and I have huge boobs that will leave black eyes, etc. Lol! I just don't do it yet. But I think with the practice, you could get used to it. The diet, you are doing amazing! My doctor had told me last year that to lose weight the healthy way, is simple...eat a 1200 calorie/day diet and exercise 30-60 min a day. You're doing exactly what you should! Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteThis is the first time I've read your blog! I swear it's making me want to make some changes! lol I've been trying drink more water and actually used ground turkey instead of hamburger meat in my spaghetti the other night but that's about it....plus I just quit smoking about a week ago so now its even harder to try dieting :-( and I have so wanted to try the couch to 5k thing but just cant get myself motivated! Even after a lady I know started it about 8 months ago and did the whole counting calories thing and she has lost over 60lbs! ugghhh why can't I just do this! this is Valerie Wilson by the way lol just wrote as anonymous
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