ugh! I miss blogging!

hello my friends. I know, I know, its been awhile. I'm doing well. I really am. My weigh loss has sloooooowed down but only because I haven't been doing too much. I haven't stopped, I didn't quit. I promise. I just got busy. REALLY REALLY busy. I know my last blog (on September 27th) explained why I was so busy but I really thought it would slow down, only it hasn't. :) I love my job, I'm just going to have to learn to straighten out my schedule so I can allow time for exercise. It started out as being slammed. The moments I was away from my computer made me feel guilty. I literally became an editing zombie. When I was with my kids, I had to work REALLY hard to not think about what sessions need to be edited. It really is a mind thing. As of right now, I have forced myself to go back to my old ways of time management and its actually working out very well. Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday 7am-330pm I'm DEVOTED to photography. Editing, answering emails and messages, planning, scheduling, ordering, etc. WEDNESDAYS I'm off and every other weekend I'm off (the weekends I have my kids) I may shoot sessions but I WILL NOT sit at this computer and edit like before... I'm off, my family needs me and I need the time to recoup. I lived by this schedule before and I was MUCH happier, I got side tracked because of my hard drive issues and having to catch up and kept telling myself "its ok, I'll only work for a little bit while the kids watch tv" and the whole weekend slipped by and aside from cooking meals, they were left to entertain themselves. Gah, THAT makes me feel guilty. More so than anything. Time is slipping away and I do NOT want them to remember their childhood as "mommy worked a lot and edited a lot and we didn't do that much together" that will NOT happen. I have cut back on how many sessions I shoot each month as well. I don't have to and I won't take every client that comes my way. It's OK to say "I'm sorry, I'm booked" and leave some days open to spend frog catching or giving the dogs a bath together or playing with the stupid chickens! :) That's what I want my children to remember when they grow up. That their mom made time for them. Always. :)

Same with my health. I HAVE to make time for it. I have gotten back on the bandwagon of getting up at the buttcrack of dawn and although I won't go to the park and walk, I do have a long driveway and I get out there and confuse the hell out of my dogs because I will walk it back and forth for at least 30 minutes getting my heart rate up. I know I've "slacked" a little. I've let myself get comfortable BUT I haven't gained any weight back and I am still making healthy choices. It's just not as strict as it was before. I'm getting back into the swing of things though and I can say, I have way more energy and I'm happier. So, before you start in on the "oh God, another instagram post of what Wendy made for dinner" beware. I'm going grocery shopping either today or tomorrow and I have a whole list of new recipes I can't wait to try and they will be filtered, hashtagged and posted on my instagram. :) (and most likely facebook too)

@justwinny is my instagram... follow me <3

Next up on my to do list is measuring! I haven't measured since August 17th so I'm going to do that to see where I am... :)

starting weight- 319
this morning my scale said 287

:) BIG SMILE. yeah, I'm still "fat" and I have a long way to go but 32 pounds is great. I love hearing from people that I haven't seen in awhile that they can really tell I've lost weight. :) I have a personal goal by my birthday that is going to push me HARD the next few weeks. My birthday is November 8th. I want to work my butt off and lose 15 more pounds by my birthday. I think its doable... we will see. :) The best thing about this whole journey in setting goals isn't reaching them or falling short but learning about yourself. I have learned SO much about myself since I decided to change my way of living. SO much. <3

Have a healthy day!
<3 Wendy